Lonely

I am lonely.

And through my inability to get some fears out of my head, I feel like I will always be lonely.
And while some loneliness is not something I fear, I fear the most to be lonely, without having someone to comfort me.
And while I get that it's up to me, I can't do it. I can't. I wish somebody would put her arms around me and say it will be ok. Save me from my fears and doubts. Save me from my demons. Save me from myself. I can't save myself.
And I recognize that I need somebody, but that somebody is always somebody's else.
And I feel there's no one out there for me.
I fear this loneliness. This darkness that's coming to surround me. I don't fear being without friends. I have all the friends I need right now.
I fear never having somebody to drive the demons away...

Sometimes it feels like you took a knife
Edgy and dull
And cut a six inch valley
Through the middle of my soul

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